ahhh. I have new followers. I'm so excited! my blog is so lame and new right now so I apologize I don't have much fun stuff to look at yet. I'm working on it, I promise. welcome, new friends!
for those of you new peeps who didn't know me before I became a mama should probably know that ever since I became a teenager, I decided I never wanted to get married or have kids. it just didn't seem like "me." I wanted an amazing career (daycare? babysitters? no thanks), to be able to go out and do what I want any time day or night, to be able to date cute guys and not get too attached (what's the fun in that?), and just be CAREFREE.
turns out, now that I'm a mama, I can't imagine thinking the way I used to. I can still have an amazing career, but as of right now I've decided to put college on the side burner and work 3 days a week at a job I don't particularly love but can tolerate (thanks to my wonderful co-workers). I'll get there someday, but until then I don't want to miss a second of my son growing up. thank goodness I partied and went out with friends and did crazy (stupid) things when I was in high school because partying every night and running off to do who knows what doesn't seem as appealing as it did back then, ya know? don't get me wrong, I still love a good night out with my friends every now and then, I would just rather not be too hungover to play with my child.
not only has my mind changed about having ONE child, I would like 2 more. preferably another boy and 1 girl. I already have both of their names picked out and pretty much have duane on board with my choices (easy as pie). according to duane, we are going to at least be engaged by the time we have our next child (hopefully within the next 3 years), which I'm totally on board with. yep, it took a long time to get here but I can actually imagine myself picking out a wedding dress and attempting to plan MY wedding. I should probably knock on wood after saying all this.
it's crazy how 1 unplanned move can change your life and completely change the way you view your future. I can't believe my teen self didn't want THIS...